“You”
have planted in us a ravenous, gnawing wonder that never says, ”enough.”...
Now we
see the evidence of your fierce passion. You want us with you. You will let
nothing else satisfy us. You insist we
come intelligently and responsibly, that we suffer a lifetime of unanswered
questions and halting convictions rather than repress the wonder in our hearts
that seeks Your face.
Tad DunneWe Cannot Find
Words: The Foundations of Prayer
I ran across this quote and it
stuck with me. I think the early stages
of faith looks for confirmation of God’s presence and favor in the prayers that
are answered and the successes that come our way. Of course as time goes on, we
have to wrestle with more and more unanswered prayers and the fact that life
can still go horribly wrong. Has God
forgotten us? Abandoned us? Or maybe, we were mistaken to believe in God at
all.
There are times when we wish we could just
walk away from this notion of God like we walk away from all childish beliefs that
we eventually outgrow. They served their
purpose, but they no longer fit. The pain of letting them o becomes less than
the pain of trying to hang on.
Except we can’t. This hunger won’t
let us go. Far from being a vestige of our childhood, we slowly recognize it as
a clue to who we are yet to become. It’s the most complex, nuanced and grown-up
pursuit we know.
Then it hits us. It isn’t the notion of God
that is childish, but our notions themselves. The real evidence is not in what God is doing
for us, but in us. It is not in the appetites God satisfies, but in the hungers
God stirs up that may be our best clues to God's presence and purpose.